Bright eyes

I’m walkin in this fuckin narrow alley for long time, I’m frustrated! Sometimes it even becomes so narrow that it squeezes my chest, till even breathing is painful. BUT always the grass is greener on the other side, so I keep on goin till I get there. YA you always get to the other side and again you’ll be able to breath and you are happy about it.

BUT it has been so so long that I have been in this alley, I want to get to the other side – to the boulevard! I don’t want to be happy just for breathin, I want to get there and start livin!!! Last time I got lucky, the grass was actually greener on the other side. But what about this time? Will be ever another green side, to live? To become actually someone! To live among others, to walk side by side with others!

Nothinelse matters, it’s so close, no matter how far is this green side. I’m just crawlin this broken path. If I make it over there, I can sit back with rest of you and laugh. BUT I’m afraid that I’ll be cryin tmr, I’m afraid I’ll be dyin tmr. I fear this path will collapse on me and I will never get to the other side. If I knew where the hell I am, I could get on with this freak show. Start crawlin alley to alley, to finally get to the greener side. I’m out of control, I’ve got lost in these alleys. Leave me alone; let me find the other side.

Just another fool!?

How many other souls tried to get there? When they get there, not even the grass is greener, the light is also brighter. So that’s why these bright eyes become blinded by this light – the fear of life! So shall I rather keep my eyes and stay on this side that grass is just OK? OR shall I keep crawlin to the other side, to get to the greener grass? BUT I’ll loose my eyes. I don’t know what the fuck to do? Shall I take the risk?

But who wants to live forever? I know I don’t! This is just a sweet moment we got on this grass. Let’s not fuck it up and enjoy this fuckin grass. BUT where is FOREVER anyway? How fast time passes by? Wasted moments will never return. Let’s just enjoy this fuckin grass on this side, till we get more knowledge about the other side, maybe we can come up with something that can protect our eyes.!?
To NOT to FEAR again!