Become GOD!

I do my cryin in the rain. Some day my cryin is done. I’m gana wear a smile and walk under the sun.
I have to find a will to carry on! Now I wish for stormy weather to hide my own gray sky. What the fuck should I do? When that fuckin day will arrive? I want to stand under the sun, just face up to the sky, open my arms wide open, close my eyes and let the sun go through my face and touch my soul deep inside. THEN I’m gana wear that selfless smile.

There’s so much confusion, the sky is now full of clouds. It seems that sun never gana shine again. Unless I’m GOD, I can blow the clouds away, paint the sky blue and put the sun in the middle to brighten my day. So am I GOD? If I’m not god these clouds will stay and I will never be able to see the sun!

If I could pass all these confusion and reach to peace in mind, I have actually blown the clouds away. Then I can stand in the sun and wear that smile. Ya that smile means that finally I have become GOD.

I want to wear that smile, I want to become GOD!

DEATH!

Maybe DEATH is really the beginning of LIFE!
Maybe that’s the other greener side. Green, huh? But what are colors anyway? It’s a physical entity, something that we came up with in this physical life, just like time.
Like I said before, time is what made GOD sick. We split off from god when he got infected by time. When we can get rid off this time, then we get cured and join back to that ocean of metaphysical soul – GOD!
Ya, then we can live forever, when time does not exist so forever doesn’t mean anythin there. So if forever is meaningless, green shouldn’t mean anything there too.
Ya no more grass or green or pain means somethin. But will pain go away too? You see, pain is somethin that relates to the soul, the metaphysical part of us. So it might not be the case, where green doesn’t mean anythin, there will be no pain.
But this pain is caused by this fuckin physical stuff. Or is it again the soul itself torture itself. Then pain may stay again.
So which life should I live? The life that forever doesn’t mean anything? Or the life that grass is green?
Maybe the greener side is here itself!!!?

Bright eyes

I’m walkin in this fuckin narrow alley for long time, I’m frustrated! Sometimes it even becomes so narrow that it squeezes my chest, till even breathing is painful. BUT always the grass is greener on the other side, so I keep on goin till I get there. YA you always get to the other side and again you’ll be able to breath and you are happy about it.

BUT it has been so so long that I have been in this alley, I want to get to the other side – to the boulevard! I don’t want to be happy just for breathin, I want to get there and start livin!!! Last time I got lucky, the grass was actually greener on the other side. But what about this time? Will be ever another green side, to live? To become actually someone! To live among others, to walk side by side with others!

Nothinelse matters, it’s so close, no matter how far is this green side. I’m just crawlin this broken path. If I make it over there, I can sit back with rest of you and laugh. BUT I’m afraid that I’ll be cryin tmr, I’m afraid I’ll be dyin tmr. I fear this path will collapse on me and I will never get to the other side. If I knew where the hell I am, I could get on with this freak show. Start crawlin alley to alley, to finally get to the greener side. I’m out of control, I’ve got lost in these alleys. Leave me alone; let me find the other side.

Just another fool!?

How many other souls tried to get there? When they get there, not even the grass is greener, the light is also brighter. So that’s why these bright eyes become blinded by this light – the fear of life! So shall I rather keep my eyes and stay on this side that grass is just OK? OR shall I keep crawlin to the other side, to get to the greener grass? BUT I’ll loose my eyes. I don’t know what the fuck to do? Shall I take the risk?

But who wants to live forever? I know I don’t! This is just a sweet moment we got on this grass. Let’s not fuck it up and enjoy this fuckin grass. BUT where is FOREVER anyway? How fast time passes by? Wasted moments will never return. Let’s just enjoy this fuckin grass on this side, till we get more knowledge about the other side, maybe we can come up with something that can protect our eyes.!?
To NOT to FEAR again!